Wednesday, January 4, 2012Y
I SCREWED UP.!
I SCREWED MY 1st JOB INTERVIEW
It was an interview for accounts clerk...YES it has a lot to do with accounting and I yes i took accounting subjects few years back for SPM..and now to do recalling I can't recall anything...
I basically had forgotten everything I learned and yea the interviewer did asked me many many questions about accounting and all I did was just smiling besides giving all wrong answers.!(damn!)
pheww...at least is over I can finally breathe a sigh of relief...TEEHEE XD
Back to the emo side of me..as usual
Yesterday I came to realise like finally realised when I should have already realise it many months ago...
I was deeply hurt by guys...I never been into any relationships but it just felts that I just broke up many many times...
Why am i saying this.? Well to many guys I am just like sort of a toy for them to release their anger.
Never once any of them actually cares for my feelings..How do I put this in words..hmmm
Here the story goes~They screwed up in their relationships and heyy they saw me desperately in need for guys...so they stopped by and say hey let's do the flirting job..and there goes me thinking they are actually serious about it...and yea heyy i fell for it..and then heyy they start playing around my feelings so I fall harder for them so this ll boast their confidence to get hook up with the next girl..and then when they finally got me in the trap they just go MIA leaving me in confuse and then come back many many YEARS(days/weeks) later saying just the "HI" word like how they did on the 1st day..and I was like "HI" confusing about what does "HI" means this time but never mind that is nothing..main thing is what is their purpose coming back saying "HI"??
You might be wondering what I was yapping and babbling all the way...well my point is all the guys that are revolving around me are never serious about me..
They came to me befriended with me and they started flirting and making me confuse about the whole conversation..and then just leave me blankly...
I have been fooled all the way growing up about feelings~
The scenes are like this..
People ll come to me and say "Hey you are getting prettier.." and I believed..and they ll say this
"You actually believe it??hahaha please look into the mirror LAH!"
2nd scene
"Hey you are getting slimmer.." I believed..and their reply
"HAHAHA..you believe it??look into the mirror lahhhh..hahahaha
3rd scene
"Hey I had a crush on you I miss you and I wanna hug you = )"
I started to believe that god has finally found that I existed and
start showering me with attentions and love..I fell for it
But it never last..It just stops there and nothing happens after that
and I realised I was dumbfounded..
4rd scene
He: Come on come on tell me!
Me: Yes yes I think I like you..
He: What??lol hahaha
Me: ...
He: I am sorry but I am not ready for a relationship...haha =)
Me: ...
So why bother asking me to confess when you know I am gonna
get a rejection in return..you could have just told me that you are not ready for it so I won't confess and I wont get hurt..And wait you laughed about it??Was it a joke..Or you are just wanting to hurt me like how your ex did to you??excuse me what happened between you and your EX is your problem don't take any revenge on me..1st of all I never exist in your fight or quarrel..so why involve me.??
ALL guys are just a jerk for me...Yea they play the game called flirting with me because they know I ll fall for it and then dump me after that..because they know they can use me and then throw me away when they do not need me anymore..that is just what I am for to them..I am nothing..just someone they can use when they screwed up their relationships..I understand now..well I don't mind if in future any guys ll do that to me again..but this time I ll never fall for any of those traps again..THE END~
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