Friday, December 30, 2011Y
confuse
CONFUSE
I truthfully,seriously,like eff-ing seriously am CONFUSE with this feeling I am having right now..
=((
I just don't get it...Do you even have feelings for me??Why are you treating me in a way where I got so confuse thinking whether you have fallen for me..??
Well this time although I still has this little feelings for you I would never never ever gonna make the 1st move again.!Of course I don't wanna face another harsh rejection.I HATE REJECTIONS.!BECAUSE REJECTIONS HURT.!
But people says "If you LOVE someone,you say it right then,OUT LOUD.Otherwise the moment just passes you by.."
I DID~and I got myself into a deep MISERABLE period of my life..SIGH
and worst still that was my 1st confess and it failed..free scar for me or shall I say scars...a deep one indeed =((
I told my friends about it..they were surprised that I didn't get over you despite all the pains you gave me making me miserable for quite a period..
I just couldn't answer them...DEEP INSIDE I know I still has this feelings for you...Maybe because you're just way too special for me that i just couldn't forget you..I couldn't let go of you..like I still want you to be a part of me..you have always been by my side through some of the journey of my life.not for long but still you had been always be there for me to listen to my crappy stories,stories that have nothing to do with you but yet you listened and did try to understand my situations and solved whatever you can to lessen my sadness..YOU DID
Ever since then,you have became an IMPORTANT person to me..So how could I forget you..IS JUST TOO IMPOSSIBLE you know
However,I still wanna know your feelings towards me..are you just being nice or are you just treating me nice because you are just trying to be helpful and friendly...who knows maybe you're doing the same thing to all your GIRL FRIENDS..
Sometimes I guess I was just thinking too much...It ll be a totally dumb stuff for me to think that you have fallen for me right?RIGHT??I know guy like you ll never fall for me..LIKE WHO LL EVEN FALL FOR ME..I am just a fat ugly ELAURA that ll always be fat and ugly...A GIRL THAT NO GUY LL EVER WANNA DATE..!!!
Is not that I have no confidence in myself..I am just saying the facts..I just don't wanna be pathetic and making myself miserable..
I hope you ll get this message without me saying anything..and I hope you don't see this either..
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