Saturday, September 18, 2010Y
I FAIL ART MAN..!!
went for volleyball game today..was pretty fun cos after a year ++ of not playing i really miss it...
anyway this is not the point of everything i m gonna post today...
i don't know why but i was really in the mood of doing sketching today...i totally adore my little brother that is at least a decade younger than me and has such a good talent in art...he gave me the inspiration of drawing...so i went to my sketchbook and start sketching something in it...
ok...(*how to start*) fyi,i have 0% of imagination when it comes to art...i ll have to admit i really suck at drawing...but i dont blame any1 for it...(*yea for this*)
but anyway since i already had in mind that i m gonna make full use of my saturday doing merely drawing so i ll just have to move on with the plan...
so as i was browsing the net searching for ideas on what to draw i finally decided on just clicking on 1 of my favorite link which is the*korean artist gallery* and wow i immediately knew what i m gonna draw already...and yea *starting sketching*
after an hour i got this
ok i admit this has no similarity at all...
(my failed piece of kim hyun joong(sry for ruining ur pride)
(X X X)
ok when every1 in my family asked who's that girl that i m drawing i know i had failed this..!a
my reaction was "but but this is a boy i m drawing"
fine i know i ll never produce an exact image of him anyway so i couldn't be bothered...but i was still satisfied with it cause it still a nice drawing after all because it was drawn by ELAURA
later,i decided to move on to another drawing and this time i told myself that even if i ll never get to draw the exact image of the person but i gotta make sure that it ll be the gender of what i m gonna draw(*get it??*)
sry thunder(*save the peace sign*)
(*seriously i m sorry oppa*) T_T(at least u look like a man...unlike hyun joong oppa)
BIG SIGH
i know i know laugh out as hard as you can...
anyway i know i ll just have to work out more on the eyes because eyes are the most difficult part to draw of all...
i decided that i ll draw a portrait i mean a REAL 1 next time i m in the mood of drawing again...
haha xD
^.^!
8:09 AM
Monday, September 13, 2010Y
I NEED HELP
HAVE U EVER HAD THE THOUGHT OF KILLING YOURSELF WHENEVER U SEE PICTURES OF YOURSELF THAT ARE SO UGLY..?..
AND HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS LOOKING LIKE THAT IN YOUR PICTURES AND IN THE REALITY???
DO U REGRETTED REALIZING THAT YOU'RE UGLY...?
can u believe that i actually cried over some ugly pictures taken by friends??
seriously...
i can never believe that the person in the picture has always look like that(*me)
i mean i see the image of mine in the mirror different from the image of mine in the photos...
why it is so??
i had enough of everything already seriously...
everyday i cried over different negative sides of me....i can even list then down...
1.my ugly powered eyes(i blame the genes)
2.my round face
3.my huge nose(i blame this on genes too)
4.my crooked teeth
5.my crooked fingers
6.my fat body
7.my humongous tummy(i do sit ups and workout everyday and it just wont go away)
8.my almost bald head(my hair loss is scary)
9.my natural ugly look
10.(i leave this empty for u to fill up for me)
see??so many right??
i have carry these ugly side of me for 18 years already and i just realized all of them recently...
do u know i might be having some kind of depression disease..?
i have loss all my self esteem and i could no longer hold my emotions..
sometimes i couldnt even recognize myself..
i dunno since when i had this depression...but i m scared because i m like a mad person now that sometimes cry and get angry over a small matters and sometimes over NOTHING...
please i need help...pls tell me if you think i need to see the doctor or the counselor...
T^T
7:31 AM
