Sunday, February 21, 2010Y
Went out with the close friends today...was happy when mum allows me to hang out with them...weirdly the happy feelings varnished immediately when i see them...why it so??it is because they are not happy to see me??or it is me that are not happy to see them??i dont know serious i dont know...could it be because we stay miles away from each other or was it because i m boring..?..i have always wanted to play this game where it is only truth and no dare instead of truth or dare...whatever it is i dont think i ll have the guts to do so...i wont ever get to find out the truth until the day i die i guess...i want to stand out whenever i go, to be popular, to be notice, and to be remembered...why it is so hard to be one...why an ordinary girl can find herself a person who can care for her and think of her day and night...and why can a person who are so much more unfortunate than me can find happiness and i dont..?..i have always wanted to keep a low profile..but whenever i attempt to do so i met many obstacles that try to stop me from doing so...i felt really devastated and shame of myself...sometimes i should learn to be myself and not anybody else...if i m straightforward then i ll just tell what i had in mind...i dont give a damn to whatever i ll get in returns...yeah i dont care...i ll keep being myself until i find some1 who ll accept me for who i m...cool??...haha...i need advises..but i dont think seeking my mum for help ll be the good choice...i guess you know the reasons right??i m waiting for angel to help me...and i ll wait for her presence...and i ll keep waiting and still waiting...
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