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Welcome to LOLA 21 JAN.92
Sunday, February 21, 2010Y

i love my friends...but sometimes i dont understand them...what i meant is they can be nice to you today and turn their back to you the next day...scary isn't it??one thing i like about my blog is people don't visit my page so i can just let go here...^^since i cant let go to any1 so i ll just let it go here...if this can help i dont mind crapping here...haiz..where was i??yes friendship...i thought this person in my friendship ll be the friend that i could ever ask for...i thought this person ll be like a friend that i can trust,share my everything...but recently i found out that my thoughts are incorrect...and yes i dont doubt it anymore...why why all attention go to this person whether this person does something or not...why does this person gets all the credits whether this person commits or not...why does this person gets love even this person is not way better than me...i want to know...even it ll be harsh words or something that i think i cant accept it but if possible i want to change...i have trying to be another person but i dont think it is working...how can you possibly be somebody else when you are not suppose to be...but if i remain to be the boring me i ll remain a loser me...yes loser...haha i m a loser...see myself in the mirror everyday and got more disappointing by day and day...phooh!!!is so hard to express my feelings...i m glad the only non living thing that is willing to lend its ears is my only blog...i think this blog has become my friend...since i gave it my birthdate so i guess it is part of me too...

heart blue w/ glitter 7:18 AM


Went out with the close friends today...was happy when mum allows me to hang out with them...weirdly the happy feelings varnished immediately when i see them...why it so??it is because they are not happy to see me??or it is me that are not happy to see them??i dont know serious i dont know...could it be because we stay miles away from each other or was it because i m boring..?..i have always wanted to play this game where it is only truth and no dare instead of truth or dare...whatever it is i dont think i ll have the guts to do so...i wont ever get to find out the truth until the day i die i guess...i want to stand out whenever i go, to be popular, to be notice, and to be remembered...why it is so hard to be one...why an ordinary girl can find herself a person who can care for her and think of her day and night...and why can a person who are so much more unfortunate than me can find happiness and i dont..?..i have always wanted to keep a low profile..but whenever i attempt to do so i met many obstacles that try to stop me from doing so...i felt really devastated and shame of myself...sometimes i should learn to be myself and not anybody else...if i m straightforward then i ll just tell what i had in mind...i dont give a damn to whatever i ll get in returns...yeah i dont care...i ll keep being myself until i find some1 who ll accept me for who i m...cool??...haha...i need advises..but i dont think seeking my mum for help ll be the good choice...i guess you know the reasons right??i m waiting for angel to help me...and i ll wait for her presence...and i ll keep waiting and still waiting...

heart blue w/ glitter 6:46 AM

Friday, February 19, 2010Y
2010 Tiger Year Rawr!!!!3

Phew what a weather today...is so hot...yesterday's was a cooling one...went to jenjarom with family today...the place is beautiful and fascinating...i admire the beauty of BUDDHA'S image...seriously i feel calmer even after a glimpse at it... despise the hot weather i still managed to visit the whole area of the temple...but i ll stay longer if the weather is bearable...i'm not the one complaining is the little brother of mine...he is always the mood spoiler you can see to avoid us from going back too early my sis the day saver has no choice but to piggy back my mischievous brother just to keep his mouth shut...thx yea ah mei...^^

okay our 1st stop was the sculptured of the buddha's cave...they imitated the cave exactly it was suppose to look like...ohkay should i say it amazing??well it is everything alike except that in a smaller version...
oh this the view of the hall...it is just part of the temple...there are more buildings inside...such as the shrine hall,the monks rooms,and whatever you call the place where you pray homage to the deities from heaven...

haha i dont think there is any interesting story behind this little monk i just think it is adorable you know short and plump cute right??...hehe

let's enter the lumbini garden shall we..?>>
ohkay as i grow up as a very devoted buddhist i have been thought with so many of jakata tales...but is the Buddha tales that i love the most...his journey to the enlightenment is a very meaningful one...but i m not gonna tell everything here...you go read up yourself...
this is little buddha...when he was born he actually walked seven steps and every steps he took lotus blooms underneath...and the 1 finger he raised was to tell the world that this is gonna be his last rebirth and he is not gonna reincarnate anymore...this is where he was born in lumbini garden...(i wanted to take it as though it is appearing large...but i faced a problem during it...so oh well)
ok but i did managed to take this pic appearing large...
see it looks as though it is very big and real right but the fact that this is just a man made sculpture that is as tall as my knee to the foot...
a monk hugging my friend (the ram)
after wondering around the temple i went in to the art exhibition with sis and i saw this
the male version of Guan Yin(the god of mercy)...don't be shock
if you're wondering why it is so...well according to the legend guan yin is never a female...is all of our imagination...it was because of his symbol of love people prefer him to be a female...(is that so..??gosh i need to go find out)
this part was the awesome one the zodiac world...i love the chinese zodiacs it won't be perfect without checking out the zodiacs or knowing bout your zodiacs when visiting a temple..right??
lets start from the first in the chinese zodiac
the rat

the ox
next the 2010 zodiac the tiger RAWRRRRRRR(so fierce)i prefer a pleasant looking one
okay i wont call it pleasant looking 100% but it does look kinda smart right...hahaha
the rabbit
the dragon(it does look scary though)
the snake(my bro was born in the year of snake...just look at his face dont you think they look the same??except that my brother didnt stick his tongue out)another pic with him pretending as a monk

the horse
the ram(yes i was born in the year of ram but in the year of 1992)
the monkey
the rooster
the dogyea the last zodiac which is the pig(my sis with her little friend)
i found kung fu panda
haha pandas represents China
the typical chinese
i dont get this...why is the little boy covering his head with a lotus...guan yin ma is giving her/his blessing...weird...
by the way this the female version of Guan Yin
i saw this wishing tree on the way back...wanted to throw my wish on that tree(according to the beliefs the higher you throw your wish list the faster your wish will come true...but haiz i didn't get to make a wish on that tree)

my last stop was the toilet...(ohkay...toilet??..^^)is just that i was really happy you know when there is sun there will be sweat rolling on your body right??...but sweat on the face is a no way...so when i saw this
i was like wow free tissues..(haha i cant live without tissues want ok...)but because it is for every1 not only me so i just took a packet only la...is not good to be greedy...(yes yes i heard you)...
(i look fair here...cool)
all right thats all for today...going to visit my mum's cousin which is my aunt tonight for dinner...sadly my older cousins will not be joining...so it ll be likely only my little cousins...gosh i m gonna be tortured...haiz...i ll just have to put on my fake happy face...(just kidding i won't it ll come naturally)^^
till then bye...

heart blue w/ glitter 12:48 AM

Wednesday, February 17, 2010Y
2010 Tiger Year Rawr!!!!2

Since that i'm free now i thought maybe i should just post the CNY celebration that took place at my house this year...This year celebration was an awesome 1...every1 has gathered at my house n they were happy staying here...and of course i'm glad to hear that...i was worried that they ll not be comfortable staying here...the only complaint i could hear from them was merely"OMG the weather is unbearable!!.."new year will never be complete without the burning sun which stood how many figures of millions away from the earth...(whatever)...i regretted for not taking any of the scrumptious dishes my mum cooked on that day..(wtf)..sighing...alright here comes the pictures...^^

(my adorable nephews)
(the reunion dinner)

(the cousins at our own dinner table)

(see ying my 90s cousin)

(kee yong my 93s cousin)


(our group photos)
(seriously my face looks extra chubbier with the bangs)

(my pretty 95s sis )

(my 74s cousin- in-law)

(my 79s cousin)

(the three of us)

(this pics is hilarious and i m proud to say i took it..^^)
(74s cousin)

(haha this pic never fail to make me laugh love them so much...at this moment i really hope that they remain at this age and dont grow up...of course their parents will kill me)p/s their father with the funny face expression....

(look at the youngest 1 he is still happy even though his heavy brother is on him...how could you say that he is not cute..he can speak perfectly at the tender age of two...i dont remember speaking this pro when i was at his age...smart kids nowadays...)

(haha the sisters)


wait if you think that was it you guess it wrongly hahaha..CNY is still in the mood hahaha..more updates on the way...toodles

heart blue w/ glitter 4:52 AM

Tuesday, February 16, 2010Y
2010 Tiger Year Rawr!!!!

Yay i'm back!!!new blog for the new year...It has been months since i did the last blogging and now i'm back with a blog of my own...(sounds nothing to you but something for me)..i ll update soon...(now busy with CNY celebration)i hope i ll keep my blog alive unlike FEMM that has became a HISTORY...oh well...^^

heart blue w/ glitter 8:57 PM