Welcome to LOLA 21 JAN.92

Name:lola elaura
age:18 soon to 19
school:ACS FOREVER
others:i m tall..!XD
Lola Elaura

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I don't know what is running in my mind.But is YOU that I am thinking of everyday.
Is obvious that you never like me..but still I want you..how could that even make sense..
and YOU are the reason I stayed up late everyday so I could at least receive a *Hey * from you..
Yea a Hey is enough to cheer me up...

PEOPLE ARE JUST BEING TOO MEAN TO ME
MAYBE THEY ARE DOING IT ON PURPOSE
I KNOW.MY INSTINCT DON'T LIE.

Who says growing up ll be easy.?who says.??
Everyday the days are harsh and you fall and hurt yourself.
But after all those miserable days you ll be an awesome adult..So welcome to the adulthood and just enjoy..
Live like tomorrow ll be last day,and with this you won't feel awful in and out xD

I BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING LL BE FINE.I LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT EVEN IF IT TAKES FOREVER =)

I know people comes and goes in life.But it is scary when everyone left all at once..
By the time you knew you were left with no one and you have to move on with life alone =(

Whenever I am sad or upset it shows clearly on my face.People thinks I put up those faces to attract attentions.I won't deny I did that partially to get attentions from people,but is not all about acting.
I can't control emotions,I want to let it out,I want people to know I am sad.
I need a shoulder to cry on. =(

Why does it always have to be HER.??WHY.??
You befriended with me just to get to know her better isn't it ridiculous enough.? If you are concern about her just go straight to her instead of coming asking me..I wont answer you anything because is just so annoying.WTF is wrong with you.??Can't you just get it IS WRONG to ask about another girl TOO MUCH when you are chatting with A GIRL.(!!)

Alright my point is I went out with HIM.!yea on Tuesday(31/1/12)
It was an exciting outing until SHE comes in(not literally coming in).Then there the whole day was just being about her..Everything was just *hey why/what/how/where/when (is she this)why/what/how/where/when(is she that).So I became nobody from that instant.I became invisible.I am nothing.

Again after we were apart that night is still regarding about her...not only that even 3 days later is still about her...OH MAN I mean I dont mind we talk and chat about her a while but you dragged it too long..The conversation turned out to be just her..WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME.??WASN'T IT SUPPOSE TO BE ABOUT US.?LIKE ME AND YOU.?JUST US.?

And I saw your status..yea it was about the outing but I can't say if you were pointing it to me or HER.??because she is included in the outing...But I guess it wont be me...Because you are not the 1st person anyway interested in her..OBVIOUSLY I mean why am I complaining anyway..SHE is 100% way better than me and hotter, prettier, popular..hmm I won't deny I am jealous..I have been jealous-ing ever since we were always been compared..I wont say it is unfair or anything..It is just I am unlucky to born like this and I ll just have to accept for who I am..

I am only hoping that I am the one you are seeing instead of her when everyone is doing it..but guess I ll have to accept the fact once again that no one can resist themselves from falling for her always..SHE is just born to be loved by everyone while I (??) hmm

I thought today ll be a disaster...but it turned out quite ok...yesterday celebrated my birthday with friends...although is just a mini cake but sincerity is the one i was searching for...and yea i was happy because i was remembered...= )

As what i expected the family didnt remember the day..as usual lahhh hahahaha

Yess i celebrated with them.!It was an awkward outing at 1st for me...but I got warm up very fast...yes it will take time for me to be myself again...but I ll give myself some time...= )